This meditation is loosely inspired by the Scripture readings for Sunday, January 7, 2007, Solemnity of the Epiphany.
Dear Lord, I have been traveling for so long to see the Divine light in my heart. It seems that my whole life has been a journey. I traveled through the scorching heat of the day, and the bitter cold of night. I traveled through ups and downs, through moments of closeness, as well as those of loneliness and dryness. I heard the calling in my heart. I was so young I can’t tell you when. I saw the light, the beautiful star in the distance, and I could do nothing other than walk and travel to pay homage to the God that will be born in my heart, to adore him.
Sometimes, I feel far from him. Sometimes the burden is too heavy and my journey so tiresome. Would you…? Could I surrender this heavy box of gold? May I give it to you? This treasure of gold is a gift fit for a king like you. It symbolizes power, kingship, purity, and incorruptibility. Would you like this beautiful gift? You see, for me it also symbolizes my hunger for power, my desire for success, my worries about wealth. I can’t carry this box and seek the Divine light. Would you take it?
I’m so excited to journey to see the Divine light! Liberation from killings, death, and war. Liberation from poverty and sickness. I seek immeasurable joy during the day and peace at night. I want to bask in Divine brightness, I want to revel in God’s glory. But, Jesus, I’m tired and I’m weak. Can I give you a gift? May I surrender this heavy box? It contains Frankincense. This is a gift fit for a Priest like you. The pure white smoke, the holy incense, loved by our God, carries our prayers and supplications to heaven. Would you take this heavy burden from me, Son of God, so I may continue my journey toward the shinning star? You see, Frankincense also represents my appearances, my pressures to be Church, my obligations, my bitter fights to protect my definition of faith. It gets heavy over time. I give this to you. So I may continue my journey…
Thanks for easing my burden, I can see the beautiful star shinning brighter than ever! I can feel the warmth in my soul stronger than before. I will persevere, I know. Sometimes the gifts I carry don’t let me see the light as well, and I stumble and fall. I look forward to adoring the God of light and peace, to offering him all of my gifts, to dwell in his presence for eternity. He reveals an all encompassing love to all nations. But dear Lord, the journey has been so long. I do have one more gift for you, because I no longer have the energy to carry so much. Would you take this heavy box of myrrh? May I surrender this heavy burden? Myrrh is a precious ointment used for healing, a medicinal balm to ease pain and suffering. You are the perfect healer, the savior and healer of our souls. What better gift for you, the Messiah? Please know myrrh is also used for embalming in case of death, which frightens me. You don’t suppose that you Christ Savior would have a need for this? Would you face suffering and death? I do thank you.
The light is bright and more beautiful than I could have ever imagined. I have arrived. I am here to adore thee, my God, my King, my Priest, my Savior. I’m here to be liberated from sin, injustices, and misery. I am here to pay homage to my beloved. My eyes are filled with tears. I’m so honored to bring you these gifts, dear God.. Oh no…, I had to give my gifts along the way in order to make it to you. Now I have nothing else to give you. Except me, all of me. I hope it suffices… I can do nothing but prostrate myself for you and completely surrender the one thing I have left…, would you accept me?
“They were overjoyed at seeing the star, and on entering the house they saw the child with Mary his mother. They prostrated themselves and did him homage.”